Chemical Reaction: It'll Be Alright Part 1

I don't know how late it was when he got home, all I know is, he looked so heart broken when he saw me covered in throw up and blood. Mostly empty full bottles everywhere. I remember how he approached me; slow and steady, as if he was walking towards and frighten or wounded animal. He got down on his knees and slowly reached over to me, hos voice trembling and cracking. "Niji...wha...what did you-"
    "I just..." My voice was weak from crying. "I just wanted to forget everything we've been out through...all the heartache...all the death...all of it...I..." My hair turned into a darker shade of blue as my eyes followed suit. "I wanted to forget it all..." I looked up at him, more tears coming out of my dry eyes. "Like you..." His eyes were so wide, they could have easily rolled out.
    "Niji, that's not how it works." I frozen when he said that. "No matter how much you drink, no matter how many times you hurt yourself, there is almost nothing you can do to stop your pain." I gripped my teeth and started to slam my fist against his chest.
    "THEN WHAT, DAMNIT! WHAT'S GOING TO GET RID OF ALL THIS PAIN?!" my voice was horse when I yelled, but I was so scared, this seemed right. "WHENEVER I LOOK AT YOU, YOU'RE NEVER SCARED! YOU'RE NEVER IN PAIN! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?!"
    "You're not-"
    "DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME, YOU DUMBASS!" I raised my hand up and was about to smack him, but he gently grabbed my wrist, making sure not to hurt me anymore then I had hurt myself.
    "I'm not lying...listen to me, I feel pain as much as you do-as much as anyone does. I just, don't show it as much."
    "THEN TEACH ME! TEACH ME HOW NOT TO FEEL!" I looked at him. It actually hurt me more seeing his eyes full of pain.
    "I can't. As long as the Mood Stone is inside of you, you'll always show your emotions." I looked down, unable to keep looking at him. "But you don't have to face them alone. I'm here." I looked up at him slowly, and I couldn't hold in back any longer.
    I jumped into his arms and started to cry harder then I have ever cried. He wrapped his arms around me and held me as tightly as he could. Between sobs, I apologized, and each time, he said he forgave me and said everything was going to be alright. He also whispered sweet nothingness into my ears, and with those sweet nothingness, I finally fell asleep, hoping he would still be holding me in his big arms.
    And he was.
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